And I Never Want to Leave

My urges for romance are beginning to get me distracted from daily life. I don't know why, but lately my mind has been so absent, almost vacant. It could be from thinking to much in school, having to concentrate for so long, and to restrain from giving someone a nasty look. I'm always on restraint, someone once told me that I have a gift for tolerance. But there's one thing that I can't be tolerant for, and that's kids.

Don't get me started, I can't do it. My patience is to thin, my annoyance level to high, and I just wouldn't be a good mother. I'm easy going, but I'm so picky about other people's habits. I remember the other day I told someone to shut up because I couldn't handle their annoying tid bit of habits. It's not my fault! Okay, so maybe it is..

I still haven't bought that candy for my Secret Santa person, and I still haven't responded to that letter yet. I know I need to, but.. I just hate doing stuff during the year, you know? I have to do so much other stuff during school, even the fun things feel like work. Will I ever get a break? Or will I ever get permission to punch my brother in the face because sometimes you just really want to do that?

I want to go to the gym, I want to run. I want to hide in the snowflakes that are falling from my window, and I can't wait to go to Vermont, to Snowboard, to watch the snow fall, and to have the access to being somewhere new. Didn't you ever want to go somewhere new so you wouldn't be known? You wouldn't be around people who knew your mistakes, or who broke your heart, or just annoyed the fuck out of you.

I hate caring about what other people think, sometimes. I just hate being embarrassed, it makes me cringe when I remember it, has that ever happened to you? Here's hoping that I'll tuck that fear away and learn Snowboarding.. And kick boxing for that matter.