Finally, a slow day.

I don't know what I'll be really sporting my thoughts about today. I believe that today has been not only a slow day, but a lonely one. With things being in such a rush, with exams and SOL's and a lot of planning and wishing, there are a lot of things that I sort of wish time could slow down so I can do. There's so much I want to do this year, but with school constantly draining me from my energy, it's been really disappointing. My family is already planning Summer Vacation, and two weeks from school is just not enough time.

I wish that I could be alone. What I really want to do is drive with unlimited amounts of money and gas, and be on the one of those road where it stretches out so long that you can see the city of the Horizon and it's just that. No other cars, no buildings, just you and long, long highway. There is something about having that summer evening air blow into your car, and you have whatever music you're blaring giving you company. I guess that's what I truly want sometimes, and the thought of becoming a Kindergarten teacher is beginning to really interest me. But I do still want to get my doctorate, so we'll see. Maybe I'll do both, who knows.

Maybe I'll buy myself a house near a super large lake, or the ocean, the kind where you're on the cliff side of one and that it's just so beautiful. I don't know if I would be in the ocean a lot, I think I would mainly be on the beach. I want to do that, but being alone on a beach would make me sad and lonely, wouldn't it? Where you're there by yourself and there's no one to watch it with you. I don't know what lessons or epiphany I had today, besides the fact that sometimes people never know what they want, maybe for small things and what to do tomorrow, but not even I know what I'll want when it comes to my thoughts. I also can't decide why I'm not into guitar as much as I should be.