- Buy a jumbo bag of candy for Megan.
- Re-write my pen pal.
- Make a list of people who I'm getting postcards to.
- Anticipate the awesome-ness of how I'll be getting a touch screen phone this Christmas. I hope I don't break it.
It is amazing how so many thoughts crossed my mind in the last three minutes.
- I miss Cody, where did you go?
- I don't want to eat
- I should go back to the gym
- Why are all the damn lights on?
- The Fray, for real make my heart fly.
- Sometimes I forget I'm taken, why is it so hard to adjust?
This morning my mother came in to say goodbye to go to work, and I woke up and I just wrapped my arms around her and I think she kissed my forehead. That was the first time in a long time that I had really held her like that, that desperate need of a mother. I'm so grown now, both mentally and physically, that in about eight years I could become a mother. I might not even be here in eight years, go figure. This 2012 stuff irritates me, this end of the world crap. I keep wondering what's going to happen, is everyone going to hold their breath? Am I going to sit and close my eyes and say I Love You to my last love?
I almost don't want to fall in love because of it. Not because of 2012, but because maybe my sought out life plan doesn't exist. But it finally snowed in early December for the first time in years. I have hope for mankind. One small snowball for nature, one huge epiphany for Jessica.
