So today was a good day, I believe. On my day back at school a lot of people waved and said hello, some giving hugs, I liked the feeling of being known. I also met a couple new people, and I can't determine if I made a good impression or not, but better yet, I have yet to wonder if I should actually -care-.
After a long discussion last night, I realized that I loved Joe. I don't know if it's to soon to say something like that, because I don't usually have those symptoms. You know, the fluttery, I need you, kind of sensation. I think maybe love is different for everyone, maybe it's different because it's a different type of love.
I realized that Joe is my Kristen, that even if I avoid him, even if I try to get over him, it wouldn't be the same. And he's showed me a brighter day to look for, even when he didn't have a bright one himself. I don't know if you guys who know who Kristen is, but she's his sweetest downfall. And it aches me to be put in a situation where I'll never have Joe again, where I'll never be someone like that to him, even he said that he isn't going to let me go.
Sort of pains me to think about it now. I wonder if I'll ever really fall in love ever again, and if I do, I wonder who it'll be with. Speaking of falling in love, I think I know who I would love if I could. His name is Cody, and he lives in Texas. Killeen, Texas to be exact. And let me say, I wish I could see him. Maybe just to say hello, give him a kiss, and then depart. You know, like in those movies. How odd would that -actually- be though? Hrm.
